13 Days In

So just a warning that this post is going to be relatively depressing. The orientations and flights were fine, and I met the other exchange students, most of which are from Europe, and that was cool. I´ve now been with my family one week, and I keep thinking that I can´t do this. I don´t speak the language, and I just found out today, my first day of school, that all of the classes for people that are actually my age are full, so I have no one to talk to, even if I did know the language, because what 18- or 19-year-old wants to talk to some stupid 16-year-old? I keep crying, and I know they say that it starts out this way because you don´t know anybody, but I wish there were at least one other exchange student at my school. But I haven´t found out what extracurricular stuff there is yet, so maybe that will help. And the counselor told me she can try to get me into more classes with other 16-year-olds. Overall, though, I just want to go home, hug my kitty, and watch a movie with my dad in his chair, my mom on one side of me, and my sister on the other. I don´t even have a stuffed animal to hug or anything here. I keep trying to find ways to break down the year so it doesn´t seem as long. Like in 5 weeks we have the 6-week camp, and after that it´s only about 7 weeks until Thanksgiving, which I want to cook at least a small version of what we eat for my family, and then about 4 weeks till Christmas. After that, my only consolation is that through the scholarships I received, we only ended up paying for a semester exchange program anyway, so what does it matter if I go home early? They say that calling home will only make it worse, but I don´t think it would be that way for me. If I could just hear my mom´s voice, that would help get me through this, I think. But it´s expensive to make international calls. So here I am, just wishing that the rough stage were over and hoping that I can make friends somehow. See? Depressing. Oh, and unfortunately, my camera doesn´t cooperate with computers and they don´t have a printer that I can put the memory card in and save them to the computer that way, so I won´t be able to post any pictures until I am back home. Home, where it´s actually warm right now. Ugh, I don´t know if I can do this...